Nutterella999's Journals

Ah................

Obsession rules. Nuff said.

Hiii

Sooooo, I haven't posted much in a while i know, i know. I IZ SORRY!

Like everyone my life is pretty awseome right now, so i am too distracted to write much. But, yay for you! (Hopefully) it's the christmass break so, i'll probably be bored so, writing should appear hopefully.

In other newa.......I have two new bands to obsess over. Since most of you guys are living in the USA you'll probably not know them but, they are AH-MAZ-ING!

They're called:

Heavens Basement, who are just plain amazing and their guitarist is an epic performer!

And......

Dear Superstar, the singer of which i've met and he is lovely. He is an awseome performer and acts really gay on stage but, he's not lol.

So, just thought you'd like to know, youtube 'em if ya want the are awseome!

So, yeah look out for writing from moi and thats bout it really!

Oh, and did i tell you i'm going to see Green Day in June! I'm so excited! XDXD

Stolen from Rhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

Without saying names, whats one thing about the last person you kissed? Pfft

A kiss on the hand or on the neck? Neck, ta.

Do you miss the way things used to be? Nope.

If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you? Yeah, I would.

Wall paper on your cell? Erm i don't have one it is a random moving pattern

Did you go to sleep smiling last night? Nah, I don't think I ever do. Just cos lol.

How many pillows do you sleep with? There's four on my bed but I only use two to sleep.

Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? Somene else, they'll keep me waaaaarm.

Is there anybody you wish you could spend time with right now? Why not?

Do you think you and your best friend will be friends in ten years? I sure hope so!

Is there someone in your life you wish you never met? I did but, I wouldn't be me if I hadn't met them.

Have you ever found someone you really, really, really liked? Nope

Are you scared to fall in love? Sometimes.

Do you like the rain? If I'm not in it yeah.

How was last night? S'OK

Describe how you feel right now in one word? Cool.

Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? Probably.

Does it matter if your boyfriend/ girlfriend smokes? I'd rather that they didn't.

Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you? Erm.....Rhii and Laura.

Who was the last person you had an argument with? Rhii?

What does your favorite pillow look like? I don't have a favorite pillow...

Whose hoodie did you last wear? My own.

Will you ever hug the last person you hugged again? I dunno, probably.

How many kids do you want to have? Two.

Where do you want to get tattooed? Nowhere at the moment.

The person you have feelings for shows up at your house, you say? I don't have feelings for anyone at the moment......

Last person you talked on the phone with? My daddy.

Are you a mean person? I can be.

Relationships or one night stands? Relationships.

Ever kissed someone who's name starts with a "C" or "J"? Nope.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your own bed? Bus, this afternoon.

Were you happy when you woke up today? Pfft......

Were your last 5 kisses from the same person? No.

Where were you at 4:02 this morning? Sleeping.

Are you an older sibling? Yup the oldest.

Did you kiss or hug anyone today? Yeah, my group hugged lol.

What are you looking forward to? The rest of the week. :D

What makes you happiest right now? Talking to friends, seeing my friends.

What should you be doing right now? Erm english homework, law essay. Joy.

Would you care if you saw the person you like, kissing someone else? I don't like anyone at the moment.

What's more important to you, keeping yourself happy or others? Both.

Would you rather run or walk? Walk, don't run, the sky is falling through!

How often do you straighten your hair? Everyday most of them time.

Has anything disappointed you over the last few days? Yeah, the amount of homework I have!

What does your phone do when it receives a new text? Lights up and vibrates.

What was your last call for? My dad wanted to know where to pick me up.

Who was the last person you gave your number to? Erm.......

Who are you missing? No-one!

Who ended your last relationship? Me.

Whats the biggest promise someone broke with you? =S

Have you ever been cheated on, if so how did you deal with it? Never been cheated on.

Can you call your ex on the phone with out it being awkward? No.

Do you have an attitude? Sometimes.

Has anyone ever tried to ruin your relationship? Nope.

Where's your best friend right now? Not here.

Have you told someone you'd pay them back but never did? No, i'm quite good. at stuff like that.

Do you have a lighter on you? Ha no, i'd end up setting myself on fire!

Where do you want to get tattooed? I've already answered this.

Do you swear in front of your parents? No.

Whats your favorite store at the mall? Dunno.

When is the next time you will see your number one on your top friends? Tomorrow!

Do you think you will have the same best friend a year from now? Hells yeah!

Was last New Year's enjoyable? Yup.

Will this weekend be a good one? It'll be a'ight.

Will tomorrow be better than today? It definitely could be.

You've taken fifteen shots of vodka, what are you doing Being dead.

If something was wrong, who is the first person you would go to? My best friends.

Do you usually tell people when you're mad at them? Depends.

Ever given your all to someone who walked away? Meh.

Do you know anyone named Matt? A few.

Were you happy when you woke up today? Meh.

What letter does the last person you kissed name start with? D.

Do you want to grow old with someone or be single forever? Grow ooooold. But not to old ;P

Do you gargle salty water when you're sick? Never. Ugh.

What are you listening to? Harry Potter ATOOTP on TV

If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be? Me no know.

Have your friends ever randomly stopped by your house? Yuurp.

Have your parents ever caught you drinking? Uhhh, not yet.

Have your parents caught you smoking? Nope.

What do you want right now? To cough.

Have you ever found yourself worrying about commitment? A little.

How often do you talk to the last person you kissed? Never.

How many people do you fully trust? Not counting family, two.

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around? Meh, again.

Are promises important? Well, yeah.

Would you introduce the last person you kissed to your parents? No.

If the last person you kissed, saw you kissing someone else, would they be mad? No.

Would you ever take anyone back if they cheated on you? I don't know, it depends on the situation and what happened.

Has the last person you texted ever been mad at you before? Not really mad, kinda pissed off but, it happens like every other day so, meh.

Do you have strange dreams? Oh most definitely.

Has someone ever called you at midnight for your b-day? Texted.

Do you like waking up and having new text messages? Sometimes.

Is your birthday in less than 6 months? In 7 and a half.

Would you ever quit a bad habit for someone? I would definitely try.

You kissed someone last night, didn't you? No.

Will you be in a relationship in two months? Errrm I highly doubt it.

When was the last time you were told you were cute? Yeah, the random guy on my table goes "she's way too cute to be listening to the used!" lol.

Are you a different person now than you were five years ago? Just a bit.

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past three months? Yeeah.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Not everyone.

Do you find it hard to trust others? Yeah.

Has anyone called you perfect before? Maybe.

Could you see yourself dropping out of high school? Nope.

What's a fact about the last person who had their arms around you? They take history lol.

When was the last time you were told you were beautiful? Dunno lol.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 2 months? Why not?

Have you ever liked anyone that has treated you crappy? Yeah.

Is there a person in your life that you know you'll never forget? Oh yeah.

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? I plan on it.

Do you currently have feelings for anybody? No.

Last person you kissed calls you right now, what are they calling for? They wouldn't.

Do you have any bruises? No, for once.

Something's wrong. First guy you turn to? Ben but, not Rhii's Ben lol. He could work too, i suppose.

Why do you hate the person you hate the most? I don't hate people really.

When meeting someone new, are you afraid they won't like you? Sometimes.

Has anyone ever told you they love you and meant it? Not guy-wise.

Do you hate it when people smoke around you? Yeah.

Who texted you last? Rhii.

What did it say? An appointment or next fiday morning then? :)"

Would you rather choose truth or dare while playing truth or dare? I like both.

Describe your life in one word? Awesome.

Is there anybody you wish you could spend time with right now? Of course.

Have you ever broken someone's heart? I don't think so.

Is there something really bad that you've done, that only YOU know about? There was, till a few weeks ago lol.

Have you ever broken a really important promise? Not that I know of.

Could you go a whole year without cursing? Haha no.

What do you have to say about the first person on your top friends? She's my best friend. XD

Ever gotten yourself into a confusing situation? Yeah.

Do you have any piercings? Ears.

Is there anyone you want to come see you? Yes.

Do you know what the last person you kissed is doing right now? No.

Is being confident cute? No, being quiet is cute lol.

Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy? It goes both ways.

Would you ever go skinny dipping with the last person who called you? Ewww it was my dad so, no!

Are you still friends with the last person who broke your trust? No.

Do you hate it when people try to play with your hair? It depends.

Someone knocks on your window at 3 am, what do you say? Panic. Then, sit there for ages trying to get myself to go see who it is lol.

Do you have any plans for next weekend? Not at the moment.

Do you find it in your heart to forgive? Depends who and what the person did.

Has anyone told you "forever and always'' then left? Uh, no.

Honestly, who's numbers do you have memorized? My home number, my mobile, Rhi's home number and my grandma's house lol.

Is your best friend a slut? Yeah they all are =P

Are you anyone's first REAL love? Phahaha! I hope not.

Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home? Depends where i'm coming from.

Will you be single over winter? Most likely.

Do you miss your past? No.

Are there certain things that can't be joked about with you? Yeah, definitely.

What's the first thing that pops into your head when you think of the past? Ah, fuck.

Sleepy, bored, ugh............

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now

1. I wish I could like you as much as I used to.

2. You scare me.

3. I don't know why I like you, but I do.

4. You are freakin' weird.

5. I wish you'd stop making me feel bad. It hurts.

6. I wanna forget you.

7. I'm so glad I started talking to you.

8. Go away no, stay.

9. You, are who I always wanted to be.

10. You make me feel better about myself.

NINE things about yourself:

1. Music is my life.

2. I can be a bitch.

3. My friends mean a lot to me

4. I'm an emotional person.

5. I'm a happy person.

6. I'm a hopeless romantic.

7. I like shiny things.

8. I have a slight addiction to lettuce.

9. Neon colours is what I love to wear.

TO WIN YOUR HEART:

1. Have a smile that makes me melt.

2. Make me laugh.

3. Be romantic.

4. Hold me tight.

5. Love my music, or some of it.

6. Make me feel safe.

7. Love me and my friends.

8. Be there for me.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1. Music

2. Love

3. Friends

4. Family

5. Him

6. Those special moments

7. What will tomorrow bring?

SIX things you do before you go to bed on an average day:

1. Brush my teeth

2. Take of my make-up

3. Get in my PJ's

4. Read

5. Listen to music

6. Have a drink

FIVE people who mean a lot in your personal life and Five on here.

1. Rhii

2. Laura

3. my family.

4. Amy

5. Sarah

6. Alissa

1. Holz

2. Amber

3. Vee

4. Jomaris

5. Nessa

6. Korie

FOUR things you're wearing right now.

1. Slippers

2. Vest Top

3. PJ pants

4. Hoodie

THREE songs that fit your life perfectly.

1. To Be Loved-Papa Roach

2. Pressure-Paramore

3. So What-P!nk

TWO things you want to do before you die:

1. Be someone

2. Make the world a better place

ONE confession:

1. I'm not as confident as you think I am.

Ever wonder if you're someone's everything?
Yeah

Last song played more than three times?
Hear Me-Framing Hanley

Last time you were really happy?
Friday

Did you take a nap today?
No

Who got mad at you last?
Korie

Last car you were in?

Daddy's

What color is your room?
Blue, white and black.

Where are your parents right now?
In bed

Does someone love you?
I'd hope so

Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
yes

Do you like to cuddle?
Yup

Have you ever made out against a car?
Nah

Kissed someone that had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
No

Are you ticklish?
Just a little

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
=S

Any plans for tomorrow?
BOWLING FOR SOUP!

When is the last time you were in a photo-booth taking pictures with friends?
Like three years ago

Whats the last thing you laughed at?
a=My dad, he fell.

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Laura

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
That's better

What color are your eyes?
Blue

Is there a girl that you would do absolutely everything for?
theres a few

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
It rained

Have you ever been cheated on?
No

Are you dating the last person you talked to?
No

What is stressing you out most right now?
Not much

What happened last night?
I slept lol

Did the last person you kissed have any piercings?
No

Do you know anyone who refuses to swear?
Yeah, mum

Did you go anywhere yesterday?
Chester

Do you have plans for this weekend?
BFS!!

What's bothering you right now?
Headache

Was last night terrible?
Nah

What were you doing at ten last night?
On here i think

Lets say you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
No

Who were you last on the phone with?
Laura

Why did you last cry?
Cos of Dom. From laughter.

Your phone is ringing. It's your ex. What do you say?
Hi

I bet you miss somebody right now?
Yeah

Is there someone you want to see?
Yeah

Whose clothes are you wearing?
Mine

Where were you at 2 this morning?
Asleep

When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Friday

Next time you will kiss someone?
Dunno

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
Nah

What if the last person you kissed said that you were the only one they wanted?
I would laugh

The boy/girl you truly care about needs you at 3 AM, would you go?
Yes

Within the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
Heavens basement!! XD

Have you broken the law in the last 3 days?
Nope

Have you ever kissed an ex after you broke up?
Nah

Have you kissed anyone within the last week?
No

Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 21?
My sisters

What's going on between you and the last person you kissed?
Nothing

Would you get back with your last ex if they asked you?
No

how many people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
A few

Do you like to take walks?
Yes

Are you listening to music right now?
Suprosingly no

Did you kiss anyone today?
Nah

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with an A?
Nah

Have you ever kissed in the rain?
No

Who was the last girl you talked to?

Mum

Do you think that you have made a difference in someone's life?
Yeah

What are you currently doing besides this?
Nothing

are you gonna be home alone tonight?
No

How long was the last shower you took?
Not long

Do you think long distance relationships work out?
Sometimes

Why aren't you at home right now?
I am

This time last year, were you single?
Yeah

How has your heart been lately?
Meh

Do you bump into someone's arm if you want to hold their hand?

Nah

Think back in April, how was your love life then?
Boring

Whats one thing you really wanted last night?
Sleep

Brian shops at primark????

Yeah, that place is full of freakin' V-necks so Brian obviously shops there. (To people who don't know what primark is, it's a cheap place that sells crap to unsuspecting people.)

Anyway, college today was interesting. Had first period off. Me and Rhii were bored and we stayed bored, sadly. Secong, i had Sociology and it was quite amusing. We ended up singing heads, shoulders, knees and toes in welsh. I was so suprised i remembered it! Then there was a load of balloons floating around so every time one went past, we'd go balloon! Just to try and waste time. The teacher got a little pissed.

After lunch i had english. We're allowed drinks in our classes now. So Dave had a can of red bull and managed to knock it over and spill it freakin' everywhere. I went all over him he stood up and jumped up and down going argh! and flapping his arms which was quite amusing to everyone.

Then last we had history and our teachers completely insane so he told us we had to go on a mad dash to the LRC to find out as much as we could about this guy. So, i'm with like this enourmous group of people and cos we're cool we were all like, fighting over books and shizz. Anyway, Dom comes over and starts trying to find this book and manages to knock nearly everything of the shelf. So, i go DOM! very loudly and got like, a billion shushs. then, he did it again, as soon as we'd picked them up. After we'd picked them up for the THIRD time, Dave comes over and is like "Have you done the homework?" AND I'M LIKE "What homework?" and he goes "the homework." it went on like that for around five minutes till someone goes just tell her what fucking homework you're on about! he just sorta grinned at me then told me. Finally. Then, he like poked me on the side and i squeked, he found it very amusing so, i may kill him.

Apart from that though, it was a pretty normal day, was good though.

Cya Izzy out.

Papa Roach.........

Were UH-MAZ-ING!!!!

Kay, so me Laura and Rhii wemt to the manchester acadamy yesterday to see Papa Roach, Madina Lake and Heavens basement. The queue was enourmous and we were kinda far back, t not too far. So, we go in at 6:30 and stand sorta four rows from the front. Slipknot came on and we were all singing.

Around 6:50 Heaven's beasement came on, i wasn't expecting much, but they were freakin' awseome! They got us all jumping, singing, clapping and everything. The singer had awseome hair! So, we were off to a good start.

There was another little interval of around twenty minutes and Madina Lake came on. They were good but, i was a little disappointed. I heard they were amazing live and they were just good y'know? So, i was looking forward to one song, One last kiss, and they didn't do it! I was so pissed. At this point we decided to move, cos we're wimps lol.

So, we moved back a little and met some cool people, they were really amusing to listen to. Then, we were singing to Dirty little secret very loudly and everyone was givving us what the fuck looks. But, then pantera's walk came on and we danced. Papa Roach took AGES to come on. But, finally they were on.

They started with boys of war and i was screaming so much. Then, they went into Change or die. It was like a lotta jumping! Then, was lifeline, god i love that song, and Jerry's hair was shiny by the way. She loves me not was next so, everyone was rapping along. Coby kept telling us how much he loved us eeek. There's like a blank there for me cos it was fucking hot and yeah. Next song i remember propperly is Scars.

We had a leetle probblem there, Laura fely faint. She was like, sitting on the floor and i was like erm......ehat do we do? So, we moved to this crappy litlle spot right at the side by the railing. Wwere there and Laura drank like, a whole bottle of water. Forever was next, i think and he said "This is for all the little dirty girls out there." lol. So thee was some other songs and then......

During Hollywood Whore Coby jumped in the crowd. Right in the middle. Last time we wen he didn't do this so, i was like "argggghhhhh" So, next song we were all there in the crappy spot when Coby come right down to barrier by us. I didn't notice at first and rhii goes "Chrlotte he's fucking here!" I like ran and jumped towards him. Laura was holding his hand, Rhii his arm. I just missed and he like grinned crazily at us. I was like "noooooooo i missed him!" But, laura got him which, was good as she's like in love with the guy.

They went off then, came back to do the encore. Coby wanted to do a death wall, he said "Now all the crowd seperate!" but, he stopped and said "I wanna see fucking carnage!" So an enourmoys mosh pit started, i didn't join in. Lol.

Then of course they finished with Last Resort!

Second time i've been to see those guys and they just keep getting better! I wanna go again already even thoug the base was way too loud and my ears are sill ringing!

Izzy out. xoxo

Oh, and Tobin's had a haircut by the way.

Not A Minute Spent To Think That We'd Regret (Epiloge)

It was a beautiful summer's day, the sort you want to last forever. This feeling was only enhanced by the people sitting around me. It was unbelievable that these people, who seemed so happy before, were actually happier just because I was happy.

Around me were smiles and laughs, the smell of flowers and warmth in the air. Perfect. So, why was there still a feeling of guilt in my mind? Maybe it was because I broke my best friend's heart? Or, maybe it was because I sent my best friend straight to the mental health ward. The worst thing was that I had to go see him, so they could evaluate his condition.

It was just like any other hospital, on the outside. I was alone, Tom, Hayley and Sam had offered to come with me but, I knew I had to go alone. I had to. It made my skin crawl just being there. The smell, the bleakness. White, just white, it nearly blinded me.

Apart from the norm though, there were the people. Some looked completely normal but, others they sat mumbling to themselves. Others wrung their hands, or their eyes shifted to much and some just plain unnerved me.

It was strange to think that my friend, my best friend, was someone that needed to be in this place. I walked slowly towards his room, 401, and knocked twice.

"Come in." Chris called I opened the door, my breathing becoming uneven, to see him sitting cross legged on his bed, looking.............well, normal. It was odd, I thought he'd look......different.

When I'd spoken to the doctors on the phone before I came, they told me just to act as normal as possible around him so, they could analyze what was wrong with him. Remembering this I smiled at him and sat down on the, slightly hard, bed with him.

"Hey Chris." I said smiling at him. He didn't reply, just continued to look at the floor. "How've you been doing?" I persisted

"How do you think I've been doing? I have been sitting here, wracked with guilt ever since that night. I don't know what happened. It was like, like I wasn't even there. Like, it wasn't me and I was just watching it. I'm not saying that I feeling that made it right but, I'm just saying that I honestly didn't mean to do it. I love too much Izzy, when I saw what I'd done; I thought I'd die myself." Chris was looking at me now, clasping my hands in his and I knew then, I had to forgive him. That was if I ever even blamed him.

"Chris, it's okay. I know you didn't mean to. Tom told me you were so scared when you realised what had happened. I could never be mad at you anyway." I smiled at him, hoping this had comforted him. It seemed to do the opposite. His face turned dark and his grip on my hands tightened.

"No, Izzy. It wasn't right I will never forgive myself. Ever." His voice was low and laced with menace. I was starting to get scared.

"Chris, look what you're doing. Calm down." I said in soothing tones but, his grip still remained as tight as before. I wrenched myself out of his grip and pressed the nurse button. Then ran. I couldn't stand to remember my friend like that, with the menace and the darkness in his eyes. I wanted to remember him as the boy who'd sat next to me that very first day, the boy who never failed and the boy who would always be my best friend.

Later, there was a lot of crying but, there were arms to hold me, words to soothe me and kisses to heal me. That night, Tom stayed with me until I could cry no more then, stayed until I no longer needed him.

That was three months ago. Chris is still in the mental health ward and not too much progress is being made. I'm not allowed to see him and I'm not sure if I'd like to but, I get weekly reports from his Mom.

Apart from that, everything I really good. Tom and I are still going strong and so are Alex, Hayley, Sam and Mike. This is a happy ending, at least it should be. I wish it was but, there will always be the dark spot where my best friend used to be.

I sighed and nuzzled my head against Tom's neck wishing I could get my perfect ending. This just with my best friend: happy, well and in love with somebody else.

So......IT'S FREAKING OVER!!!!!!!

Yus, no NAMSTTTWR! But.......

There's still YTTWWY and....i have another one called My sweet mistake in the works so yeah!

Not A Minute Spent To Think That We'd Regret-26 (THE END)

Tom's POV

I don't know what to do. Izzy's getting paler by the second and there's nothing I can do about it, nothing. And, just to top it off, I have Chris sitting next to me. And he's holding her hand. He's sitting there, clutching her hand and repeating how sorry he is over and over again, as if, it wasn't his fault that she was about to......no, she couldn't.

Her eyes weren't open and she wasn't responding to anyone or anything but, I had to talk to her, just........just in case. I leant down close, right to her ear.

"Izzy? Can you hear me?" No response. "Okay, well, try please? Isobel Miller, from the first time I talked to you, I knew. Just knew. You were special. But, at that point, I didn't know, quite how special you'd be to me. But, you are Izzy, truly so, please, please. Stay with me. Please. I leaned away from her and glared at Chris, my hands were shaking. "Get your fucking hands off her. You were the one who fucking did this to her, you bastard. You're never to come near her again. Ever." He nodded, whether in agreement or, in fear, I wasn't sure. Then, he dropped her hand and shifted away from Izzy, his face was hurt and, for a second, I felt sorry for him. But, only for a second.

After another ten minutes, I heard sirens. A mixture of paramedics and police ran in. The paramedics shoved me out of the way and tended to Izzy. The police pinned Chris against the wall and handcuffed him. To his credit, he took it all without complaint. But, my attention didn't linger on him for long. It slid back to Izzy as quickly as it had shifted away from her. She didn't look any better, if anything she looked worse. An oxygen mask had been put on her and a paramedic was currently checking her pulse. He looked up then and saw me.

"You riding with her?" he asked as the other paramedic slid her into the ambulance. I didn't answer, just walked over to the ambulance and got in.

The ride went by quickly. It consisted mostly of me holding Izzy's hand and murmuring incoherent things to her. When we got to the hospital she was whisked away and, because I wasn't family, I was left in the waiting room.

I spent two hours in that room, driving myself slowly insane. The walls were closing in on me, blank and white. The obscene orange chairs made my eyes water. And all the time my mind was on Izzy. Hoping, praying, she'd be okay. That she'd be able to come back to me.

After a long time and after Izzy's whole family, Sam and Hayley had joined me, a doctor came towards us. I couldn't read his expression which was incredibly frustrating.

"She was very lucky, the knife missed her spinal cord and she hasn't lost a I

Terrible amount of blood but, she will need to take it easy for a while. His face broke into a smile and he led us towards Izzy's room.

She looked better. Her skin was its normal peach-white rather than deathly white. Her eyes were open and blue as ever. I knew right then, that I loved her. The sort of love that you know is forever.

Izzy's POV

Everyone came rushing into my room and my mother threw herself at me. I winced in pain.

"Isobel! Oh, Izzy! I can't believe this! Stabbed? Izzy what would we have done? Don't ever scare us like that again!" She was crying now and I hugged her tightly, ignoring the twinge in my lower back.

The next few minutes were spent, hugging and with sighs of relief. Finally my father got up and put his arm around my mother's shoulder.

"Shall we leave Isobel alone with her friends for a little while Georgina?" My Dad said smiling at my mum, who looked horrified at the very thought. Eventually though she agreed.

"Oh my God Izzy! I'm so sorry! We should never have left you!" exploded Sam, throwing her hands in the air.

"What do you mean? It's not your fault! It's fucking Izzy's! How stupid are you? Why? Why, did you go with him? You idiot!" Hayley was shouting by the end. Hayley never has, and never will do sad.

"It's okay Iz. I saw a tear in her eye before." Whispered Sam. Hayley shot her a death glare but, said nothing.

"Guys? I love you and all but, could you give me a minute with Tom?" They both nodded and walked out of the room.

"Tom?" I asked.

"Yeah?" he replied

"It wasn't me." I protested feebly, the sleeping drugs were starting to kick in, finally.

"Huh?" He said, his eyebrows furrowed.

"I didn't write that letter, it was Chris, I wouldn't, ever, write that. Why would you believe it?" I said

"I don't know. I suppose, when someone tells you they care about you, it's hard to accept because, if you're let down, it breaks your heart. But, it's easier to believe someone when they say they don't love you." He finished and looked at me.

"That's a good answer but, I do love you, I promise."

"I love you too."

"I feel sleepy..........." I mumbled and Tom lay next to me and held me. For the first time in days I felt, completely, safe.

Not A Minute Spent, To Think That We'd Regret-25

It's short, I know. I don't give a shit to be honest. I'm nearly done now just, one more chapter and the epilogue. So yeah, nearly done. THANK GOD!!!

Izzy's POV

My eyes, I knew, were filled with tears. I looked a Chris beseechingly, hoping he would do the right thing, now, before it was too late. He looked at me, a long blank look. Then picked up the veil that a nearby assistant was holding and placed it carefully, tenderly, on my head. He looked at me again, this time I saw a flicker of something, something I often saw in my own eyes when I looked at Tom and at that moment, I wanted more than anything to love Chris, but I couldn't. I just couldn't. Though, I really, really wanted to. My head, and my heart, just weren't co-operating.

We were lead into the small, dirty room where we were to be joined in holy matrimony. I shivered at the very thought. I wasn't ready for this, I'm sixteen and even if it was Tom standing next to me right now, I'd still be terrified. I'm just not ready. I started to shake and my breathing got uneven and shallow. Chris put his arm around me, in what probably looked to everyone else like a comforting and loving gesture, but really it was so he could keep his knife pressed against me. We were in now, waiting for the wedding march to start.

Tom's POV

I knew she was in there, now I just needed to get in. There was a queue forming by the door as it was now night time. How could I get in? I scanned the room desperately, hoping to God something would pop up and save the day.

Right by the door, I assumed led to the room where it all happened, there was the receptionist. I wondered if, perhaps, I could flirt my way in. It was worth a shot. She was quite young, around nineteen. It's a good job I look old for my age.

I ruffled my hair up into what I hoped was a passably attractive mess and sauntered over to the receptionists desk. I tried to imagine that she was Izzy but, I couldn't do it. This girl was just not her. She was blonde with blue eyes which would make you think she was gorgeous. Wrong. Her hair was obviously died blonde as, it was only one colour and it was practically yellow. She also seemed to think a whole tube of foundation was a good luck. I tried my best though; hopefully she was the sort of girl that would fall for this bullshit.

"Hey," I husked and glanced at the girls name tag "Shauna? What a hot name." she blushed ever so lightly and batted her eyelashes at me in a very unattractive way.

"Thanks." She simpered back "What's your name?"

"Tom." I answered "Listen, could you just let me in the ceremony room? It's my friends wedding and I'm the witness. I just went out to get some air and they'd already gone in." I looked at her from under my lashes in what I hoped was an alluring look. I seemed to work, as she stood up and beckoned me to follow her with her finger.

She led me through a series of hallways then, into another, much smaller, waiting room which contained only one couple, they looked excited and very drunk but, weren't Izzy and Chris.

"They must already be in there." I muttered mostly to myself but, Shauna heard me and motioned me through a door at the end of the hall. I followed, hoping........what? That she'd suddenly realise her love for me, just because I came to tell her that very thing that she'd specifically said wouldn't make her change her mind?

I couldn't do it, she'd never take me back or suddenly realise her love for me. Or whatever the fuck I was hoping would happen. I couldn't do it, no I couldn't. I was just about to tap Shauna on the shoulder and tell her it didn't matter. But, she'd already opened the door and announced my presence.

"Here's your witness!" she exclaimed with a flourish of her hand. I smiled weakly at a very shocked Izzy and an infuriated Chris. I strode to the front of the room and sat down. I tried to speak but, the vicar was adamant.

"Wait until the time I ask if anyone has any objections." He hissed menacingly, he scary as anything for a freaking priest. I sat fidgeting nervously until finally.

"Speak now or forever hold your peace." I jumped up then.

"Me! I have an objection! Izzy, listen. I know you wrote that letter and-"

"What? Tom I-"Izzy started but, I cut her off with a wave of my hand

"No, let me finish. I know you said you love Chris and the logical thing to do would be to get on with my life. But, I can't. I can't Isobel I love you, always will. But, I want you to be happy, if you love Chris then, I'll leave you alone but. If there is a small chance that you love me too then, just do it, take a chance Izzy." I finished and looked at Izzy pleadingly. She looked at me; her eyes filled with tears, and cried out in pain. "Izzy?" I asked and when she fell to the floor, panic flooded my body "IZZY!" I roared I glanced at Chris, he was holding a blood soaked knife in his hand a look of horror on his face. "Fucking go." I whispered "Go and fucking call the police and the paramedics and turn yourself the fuck in. now."

He rushed from the room, while the minister looked on in shocked horror. I cradled Izzy in my arms as blood seeped through her top onto my hands. Her face was losing colour and I couldn't stand it. She couldn't leave me. Could she?

Results!!!!

So, I got my results today.......................

I passed everythijng!!!!!!! :D:D

I got five B's, four C's and two A's!!!!!!!!

So, I did freakin' well!!!!!!!!

Oh, and Happy Birthday James!!!! <3