I'm Writing Again These Letters To You..........

Obsession rules. Nuff said.

Sooooo, I haven't posted much in a while i know, i know. I IZ SORRY!

Like everyone my life is pretty awseome right now, so i am too distracted to write much. But, yay for you! (Hopefully) it's the christmass break so, i'll probably be bored so, writing should appear hopefully.

In other newa.......I have two new bands to obsess over. Since most of you guys are living in the USA you'll probably not know them but, they are AH-MAZ-ING!

They're called:

Heavens Basement, who are just plain amazing and their guitarist is an epic performer!

And......

Dear Superstar, the singer of which i've met and he is lovely. He is an awseome performer and acts really gay on stage but, he's not lol.

So, just thought you'd like to know, youtube 'em if ya want the are awseome!

So, yeah look out for writing from moi and thats bout it really!

Oh, and did i tell you i'm going to see Green Day in June! I'm so excited! XDXD

Without saying names, whats one thing about the last person you kissed? Pfft

A kiss on the hand or on the neck? Neck, ta.

Do you miss the way things used to be? Nope.

If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you? Yeah, I would.

Wall paper on your cell? Erm i don't have one it is a random moving pattern

Did you go to sleep smiling last night? Nah, I don't think I ever do. Just cos lol.

How many pillows do you sleep with? There's four on my bed but I only use two to sleep.

Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? Somene else, they'll keep me waaaaarm.

Is there anybody you wish you could spend time with right now? Why not?

Do you think you and your best friend will be friends in ten years? I sure hope so!

Is there someone in your life you wish you never met? I did but, I wouldn't be me if I hadn't met them.

  Have you ever found someone you really, really, really liked? Nope

Are you scared to fall in love? Sometimes.

Do you like the rain? If I'm not in it yeah.

How was last night? S'OK

Describe how you feel right now in one word? Cool.

Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? Probably.

Does it matter if your boyfriend/ girlfriend smokes? I'd rather that they didn't.

Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you? Erm.....Rhii and Laura.

Who was the last person you had an argument with? Rhii?

What does your favorite pillow look like? I don't have a favorite pillow...

Whose hoodie did you last wear? My own.

Will you ever hug the last person you hugged again? I dunno, probably.

How many kids do you want to have? Two.

Where do you want to get tattooed? Nowhere at the moment.

The person you have feelings for shows up at your house, you say? I don't have feelings for anyone at the moment......

Last person you talked on the phone with? My daddy.

Are you a mean person? I can be.

 Relationships or one night stands? Relationships.

Ever kissed someone who's name starts with a "C" or "J"? Nope.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your own bed? Bus, this afternoon.

Were you happy when you woke up today? Pfft......

Were your last 5 kisses from the same person? No.

Where were you at 4:02 this morning? Sleeping.

Are you an older sibling? Yup the oldest.

Did you kiss or hug anyone today? Yeah, my group hugged lol.

What are you looking forward to? The rest of the week. :D

What makes you happiest right now? Talking to friends, seeing my friends.

What should you be doing right now? Erm english homework, law essay. Joy.

Would you care if you saw the person you like, kissing someone else? I don't like anyone at the moment.

What's more important to you, keeping yourself happy or others? Both.

Would you rather run or walk? Walk, don't run, the sky is falling through!

How often do you straighten your hair? Everyday most of them time.

Has anything disappointed you over the last few days? Yeah, the amount of homework I have!

 What does your phone do when it receives a new text? Lights up and vibrates.

What was your last call for? My dad wanted to know where to pick me up.

Who was the last person you gave your number to? Erm.......

Who are you missing? No-one!

Who ended your last relationship? Me.

Whats the biggest promise someone broke with you? =S

Have you ever been cheated on, if so how did you deal with it? Never been cheated on.

Can you call your ex on the phone with out it being awkward? No.

Do you have an attitude? Sometimes.

Has anyone ever tried to ruin your relationship? Nope.

Where's your best friend right now? Not here.

Have you told someone you'd pay them back but never did? No, i'm quite good. at stuff like that.

Do you have a lighter on you? Ha no, i'd end up setting myself on fire!

Where do you want to get tattooed? I've already answered this.

Do you swear in front of your parents? No.

Whats your favorite store at the mall? Dunno.

When is the next time you will see your number one on your top friends? Tomorrow!

Do you think you will have the same best friend a year from now? Hells yeah!

Was last New Year's enjoyable? Yup.

Will this weekend be a good one? It'll be a'ight.

Will tomorrow be better than today? It definitely could be.

You've taken fifteen shots of vodka, what are you doing Being dead.

 If something was wrong, who is the first person you would go to? My best friends.

Do you usually tell people when you're mad at them? Depends.

Ever given your all to someone who walked away? Meh.

Do you know anyone named Matt? A few.

Were you happy when you woke up today? Meh.

What letter does the last person you kissed name start with? D.

Do you want to grow old with someone or be single forever? Grow ooooold. But not to old ;P

Do you gargle salty water when you're sick? Never. Ugh.

What are you listening to? Harry Potter ATOOTP on TV

If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be? Me no know.

Have your friends ever randomly stopped by your house? Yuurp.

Have your parents ever caught you drinking? Uhhh, not yet.

Have your parents caught you smoking? Nope.

What do you want right now? To cough.

Have you ever found yourself worrying about commitment? A little.

How often do you talk to the last person you kissed? Never.

How many people do you fully trust? Not counting family, two.

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around? Meh, again.

Are promises important? Well, yeah.

Would you introduce the last person you kissed to your parents? No.

If the last person you kissed, saw you kissing someone else, would they be mad? No.

Would you ever take anyone back if they cheated on you? I don't know, it depends on the situation and what happened.

Has the last person you texted ever been mad at you before? Not really mad, kinda pissed off but, it happens like every other day so, meh.

Do you have strange dreams? Oh most definitely.

Has someone ever called you at midnight for your b-day? Texted.

Do you like waking up and having new text messages? Sometimes.

Is your birthday in less than 6 months? In 7 and a half.

Would you ever quit a bad habit for someone? I would definitely try.

You kissed someone last night, didn't you? No.

Will you be in a relationship in two months? Errrm I highly doubt it.

When was the last time you were told you were cute? Yeah, the random guy on my table goes "she's way too cute to be listening to the used!" lol.

Are you a different person now than you were five years ago? Just a bit.

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past three months? Yeeah.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Not everyone.

Do you find it hard to trust others? Yeah.

Has anyone called you perfect before? Maybe.

Could you see yourself dropping out of high school? Nope.

What's a fact about the last person who had their arms around you? They take history lol.

When was the last time you were told you were beautiful? Dunno lol.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 2 months? Why not?

Have you ever liked anyone that has treated you crappy? Yeah.

Is there a person in your life that you know you'll never forget? Oh yeah.

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? I plan on it.

Do you currently have feelings for anybody? No.

Last person you kissed calls you right now, what are they calling for? They wouldn't.

Do you have any bruises? No, for once.

Something's wrong. First guy you turn to? Ben but, not Rhii's Ben lol. He could work too, i suppose.

Why do you hate the person you hate the most? I don't hate people really.

When meeting someone new, are you afraid they won't like you? Sometimes.

Has anyone ever told you they love you and meant it? Not guy-wise.

Do you hate it when people smoke around you? Yeah.

Who texted you last? Rhii.

What did it say? An appointment or next fiday morning then? :)"

Would you rather choose truth or dare while playing truth or dare? I like both.

Describe your life in one word? Awesome.

Is there anybody you wish you could spend time with right now? Of course.

Have you ever broken someone's heart? I don't think so.

Is there something really bad that you've done, that only YOU know about? There was, till a few weeks ago lol.

Have you ever broken a really important promise? Not that I know of.

Could you go a whole year without cursing? Haha no.

What do you have to say about the first person on your top friends? She's my best friend. XD

Ever gotten yourself into a confusing situation? Yeah.

 Do you have any piercings? Ears.

Is there anyone you want to come see you? Yes.

Do you know what the last person you kissed is doing right now? No.

Is being confident cute? No, being quiet is cute lol.

Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy? It goes both ways.

Would you ever go skinny dipping with the last person who called you? Ewww  it was my dad so, no!

Are you still friends with the last person who broke your trust? No.

Do you hate it when people try to play with your hair? It depends.

Someone knocks on your window at 3 am, what do you say? Panic. Then, sit there for ages trying to get myself to go see who it is lol.

Do you have any plans for next weekend? Not at the moment.

Do you find it in your heart to forgive? Depends who and what the person did.

Has anyone told you "forever and always'' then left? Uh, no.

Honestly, who's numbers do you have memorized? My home number, my mobile, Rhi's home number and my grandma's house lol.

Is your best friend a slut? Yeah they all are =P

Are you anyone's first REAL love? Phahaha! I hope not.

Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home? Depends where i'm coming from.

Will you be single over winter? Most likely.

Do you miss your past? No.

Are there certain things that can't be joked about with you? Yeah, definitely.

What's the first thing that pops into your head when you think of the past? Ah, fuck.

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now

1. I wish I could like you as much as I used to.

2. You scare me.

3. I don't know why I like you, but I do.

4. You are freakin' weird.

5. I wish you'd stop making me feel bad. It hurts.

6. I wanna forget you.

7. I'm so glad I started talking to you.

8. Go away no, stay.

9. You, are who I always wanted to be.

10. You make me feel better about myself.

NINE things about yourself:

1. Music is my life.

2. I can be a bitch.

3. My friends mean a lot to me

4. I'm an emotional person.

5. I'm a happy person.

6. I'm a hopeless romantic.

7. I like shiny things.

8. I have a slight addiction to lettuce.

9. Neon colours is what I love to wear.

TO WIN YOUR HEART:

1. Have a smile that makes me melt.

2. Make me laugh.

3. Be romantic.

4. Hold me tight.

5. Love my music, or some of it.

6. Make me feel safe.

7. Love me and my friends.

8. Be there for me.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1. Music

2. Love

3. Friends

4. Family

5. Him

6. Those special moments

7. What will tomorrow bring?

SIX things you do before you go to bed on an average day:

1. Brush my teeth

2. Take of my make-up

3. Get in my PJ's

4. Read

5. Listen to music

6. Have a drink

FIVE people who mean a lot in your personal life and Five on here.

1. Rhii

2. Laura

3. my family.

4. Amy

5. Sarah

6. Alissa

1. Holz

2. Amber

3. Vee

4. Jomaris

5. Nessa

6. Korie

FOUR things you're wearing right now.

1. Slippers

2. Vest Top

3. PJ pants

4. Hoodie

THREE songs that fit your life perfectly.

1. To Be Loved-Papa Roach

2. Pressure-Paramore

3. So What-P!nk


TWO things you want to do before you die:

1. Be someone

2. Make the world a better place

ONE confession:

1. I'm not as confident as you think I am.

Ever wonder if you're someone's everything?
Yeah

Last song played more than three times?
Hear Me-Framing Hanley

Last time you were really happy?
Friday

Did you take a nap today?
No

Who got mad at you last?
Korie

Last car you were in?

Daddy's

What color is your room?
Blue, white and black.

Where are your parents right now?
In bed

Does someone love you?
I'd hope so

Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
yes

Do you like to cuddle?
Yup

Have you ever made out against a car?
Nah

Kissed someone that had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
No

Are you ticklish?
Just a little

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
=S

Any plans for tomorrow?
BOWLING FOR SOUP!

When is the last time you were in a photo-booth taking pictures with friends?
Like three years ago

Whats the last thing you laughed at?
a=My dad, he fell.

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Laura

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
That's better

What color are your eyes?
Blue

Is there a girl that you would do absolutely everything for?
theres a few

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
It rained

Have you ever been cheated on?
No

Are you dating the last person you talked to?
No

What is stressing you out most right now?
Not much

What happened last night? 
I slept lol

Did the last person you kissed have any piercings?
No

Do you know anyone who refuses to swear?
Yeah, mum

Did you go anywhere yesterday?
Chester

Do you have plans for this weekend?
BFS!!

What's bothering you right now?
Headache

Was last night terrible?
Nah

What were you doing at ten last night?
On here i think

Lets say you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
No

Who were you last on the phone with?
Laura

Why did you last cry?
Cos of Dom. From laughter.

Your phone is ringing. It's your ex. What do you say?
Hi

I bet you miss somebody right now?
Yeah

Is there someone you want to see?
Yeah

Whose clothes are you wearing?
Mine

Where were you at 2 this morning?
Asleep

When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Friday

Next time you will kiss someone?
Dunno

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
Nah

What if the last person you kissed said that you were the only one they wanted?
I would laugh

The boy/girl you truly care about needs you at 3 AM, would you go?
Yes

Within the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
Heavens basement!! XD

Have you broken the law in the last 3 days?
Nope

Have you ever kissed an ex after you broke up?
Nah

Have you kissed anyone within the last week?
No

Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 21? 
My sisters

What's going on between you and the last person you kissed? 
Nothing

Would you get back with your last ex if they asked you? 
No

how many people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
A few

Do you like to take walks?
Yes

Are you listening to music right now?
Suprosingly no

Did you kiss anyone today?
Nah

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with an A?
Nah

Have you ever kissed in the rain?
No

Who was the last girl you talked to? 

Mum

Do you think that you have made a difference in someone's life?
Yeah

What are you currently doing besides this? 
Nothing

are you gonna be home alone tonight?
No

How long was the last shower you took?
Not long

Do you think long distance relationships work out?
Sometimes

Why aren't you at home right now? 
I am

This time last year, were you single? 
Yeah

How has your heart been lately?
Meh

Do you bump into someone's arm if you want to hold their hand?

Nah

Think back in April, how was your love life then?
Boring

Whats one thing you really wanted last night?
Sleep

 

Yeah, that place is full of freakin' V-necks so Brian obviously shops there. (To people who don't know what primark is, it's a cheap place that sells crap to unsuspecting people.)

Anyway, college today was interesting. Had first period off. Me and Rhii were bored and we stayed bored, sadly. Secong, i had Sociology and it was quite amusing. We ended up singing heads, shoulders, knees and toes in welsh. I was so suprised i remembered it! Then there was a load of balloons floating around so every time one went past, we'd go balloon! Just to try and waste time. The teacher got a little pissed.

After lunch i had english. We're allowed drinks in our classes now. So Dave had a can of red bull and managed to knock it over and spill it freakin' everywhere. I went all over him he stood up and jumped up and down going argh! and flapping his arms which was quite amusing to everyone.

Then last we had history and our teachers completely insane so he told us we had to go on a mad dash to the LRC to find out as much as we could about this guy. So, i'm with like this enourmous group of people and cos we're cool we were all like, fighting over books and shizz. Anyway, Dom comes over and starts trying to find this book and manages to knock nearly everything of the shelf. So, i go DOM! very loudly and got like, a billion shushs. then, he did it again, as soon as we'd picked them up. After we'd picked them up for the THIRD time, Dave comes over and is like "Have you done the homework?" AND I'M LIKE "What homework?" and he goes "the homework."  it went on like that for around five minutes till someone goes just tell her what fucking homework you're on about! he just sorta grinned at me then told me. Finally. Then, he like poked me on the side and i squeked, he found it very amusing so, i may kill him.

Apart from that though, it was a pretty normal day, was good though.

Cya Izzy out.

Were UH-MAZ-ING!!!!

Kay, so me Laura and Rhii wemt to the manchester acadamy yesterday to see Papa Roach, Madina Lake and Heavens basement. The queue was enourmous and we were kinda far back, t not too far. So, we go in at 6:30 and stand sorta four rows from the front. Slipknot came on and we were all singing.

Around 6:50 Heaven's beasement came on, i wasn't expecting much, but they were freakin' awseome! They got us all jumping, singing, clapping and everything. The singer had awseome hair! So, we were off to a good start.

There was another little interval of around twenty minutes and Madina Lake came on. They were good but, i was a little disappointed. I heard they were amazing live and they were just good y'know? So, i was looking forward to one song, One last kiss, and they didn't do it! I was so pissed. At this point we decided to move, cos we're wimps lol.

So, we moved back a little and met some cool people, they were really amusing to listen to. Then, we were singing to Dirty little secret very loudly and everyone was givving us what the fuck looks. But, then pantera's walk came on and we danced. Papa Roach took AGES to come on. But, finally they were on.

They started with boys of war and i was screaming so much. Then, they went into Change or die. It was like a lotta jumping! Then, was lifeline, god i love that song, and Jerry's hair was shiny by the way. She loves me not was next so, everyone was rapping along. Coby kept telling us how much he loved us eeek. There's like a blank there for me cos it was fucking hot and yeah. Next song i remember propperly is Scars.

We had a leetle probblem there, Laura fely faint. She was like, sitting on the floor and i was like erm......ehat do we do? So, we moved to this crappy litlle spot right at the side by the railing. Wwere there and Laura drank like, a whole bottle of water. Forever was next, i think and he said "This is for all the little dirty girls out there." lol. So thee was some other songs and then......

During Hollywood Whore Coby jumped in the crowd. Right in the middle. Last time we wen he didn't do this so, i was like "argggghhhhh" So, next song we were all there in the crappy spot when Coby come right down to barrier by us. I didn't notice at first and rhii goes "Chrlotte he's fucking here!" I like ran and jumped towards him. Laura was holding his hand, Rhii his arm. I just missed and he like grinned crazily at us. I was like "noooooooo i missed him!" But, laura got him which, was good as she's like in love with the guy.

They went off then, came back to do the encore. Coby wanted to do a death wall, he said "Now all the crowd seperate!" but, he stopped and said "I wanna see fucking carnage!" So an enourmoys mosh pit started, i didn't join in. Lol.

Then of course they finished with Last Resort!

Second time i've been to see those guys and they just keep getting better! I wanna go again already even thoug the base was way too loud and my ears are sill ringing!

Izzy out. xoxo

Oh, and Tobin's had a haircut by the way.

It was a beautiful summer's day, the sort you want to last forever. This feeling was only enhanced by the people sitting around me. It was unbelievable that these people, who seemed so happy before, were actually happier just because I was happy.

Around me were smiles and laughs, the smell of flowers and warmth in the air. Perfect. So, why was there still a feeling of guilt in my mind? Maybe it was because I broke my best friend's heart? Or, maybe it was because I sent my best friend straight to the mental health ward. The worst thing was that I had to go see him, so they could evaluate his condition. 

It was just like any other hospital, on the outside. I was alone, Tom, Hayley and Sam had offered to come with me but, I knew I had to go alone. I had to. It made my skin crawl just being there. The smell, the bleakness. White, just white, it nearly blinded me.

Apart from the norm though, there were the people. Some looked completely normal but, others they sat mumbling to themselves. Others wrung their hands, or their eyes shifted to much and some just plain unnerved me. 

It was strange to think that my friend, my best friend, was someone that needed to be in this place. I walked slowly towards his room, 401, and knocked twice.

"Come in." Chris called I opened the door, my breathing becoming uneven, to see him sitting cross legged on his bed, looking.............well, normal. It was odd, I thought he'd look......different.  

When I'd spoken to the doctors on the phone before I came, they told me just to act as normal as possible around him so, they could analyze what was wrong with him. Remembering this I smiled at him and sat down on the, slightly hard, bed with him. 

"Hey Chris." I said smiling at him. He didn't reply, just continued to look at the floor. "How've you been doing?" I persisted

"How do you think I've been doing? I have been sitting here, wracked with guilt ever since that night. I don't know what happened. It was like, like I wasn't even there. Like, it wasn't me and I was just watching it. I'm not saying that I feeling that made it right but, I'm just saying that I honestly didn't mean to do it. I love too much Izzy, when I saw what I'd done; I thought I'd die myself." Chris was looking at me now, clasping my hands in his and I knew then, I had to forgive him. That was if I ever even blamed him. 

"Chris, it's okay. I know you didn't mean to. Tom told me you were so scared when you realised what had happened. I could never be mad at you anyway." I smiled at him, hoping this had comforted him. It seemed to do the opposite. His face turned dark and his grip on my hands tightened.

"No, Izzy. It wasn't right I will never forgive myself. Ever." His voice was low and laced with menace. I was starting to get scared.  

"Chris, look what you're doing. Calm down." I said in soothing tones but, his grip still remained as tight as before. I wrenched myself out of his grip and pressed the nurse button. Then ran. I couldn't stand to remember my friend like that, with the menace and the darkness in his eyes. I wanted to remember him as the boy who'd sat next to me that very first day, the boy who never failed and the boy who would always be my best friend.

Later, there was a lot of crying but, there were arms to hold me, words to soothe me and kisses to heal me. That night, Tom stayed with me until I could cry no more then, stayed until I no longer needed him. 

That was three months ago. Chris is still in the mental health ward and not too much progress is being made. I'm not allowed to see him and I'm not sure if I'd like to but, I get weekly reports from his Mom.

Apart from that, everything I really good. Tom and I are still going strong and so are Alex, Hayley, Sam and Mike. This is a happy ending, at least it should be. I wish it was but, there will always be the dark spot where my best friend used to be. 

I sighed and nuzzled my head against Tom's neck wishing I could get my perfect ending. This just with my best friend: happy, well and in love with somebody else.

So......IT'S FREAKING OVER!!!!!!!

Yus, no NAMSTTTWR! But.......

There's still YTTWWY and....i have another one called My sweet mistake in the works so yeah!

Tom's POV

I don't know what to do. Izzy's getting paler by the second and there's nothing I can do about it, nothing. And, just to top it off, I have Chris sitting next to me. And he's holding her hand. He's sitting there, clutching her hand and repeating how sorry he is over and over again, as if, it wasn't his fault that she was about to......no, she couldn't. 

Her eyes weren't open and she wasn't responding to anyone or anything but, I had to talk to her, just........just in case. I leant down close, right to her ear.

"Izzy? Can you hear me?" No response. "Okay, well, try please? Isobel Miller, from the first time I talked to you, I knew. Just knew. You were special. But, at that point, I didn't know, quite how special you'd be to me. But, you are Izzy, truly so, please, please. Stay with me. Please. I leaned away from her and glared at Chris, my hands were shaking. "Get your fucking hands off her. You were the one who fucking did this to her, you bastard. You're never to come near her again. Ever." He nodded, whether in agreement or, in fear, I wasn't sure. Then, he dropped her hand and shifted away from Izzy, his face was hurt and, for a second, I felt sorry for him. But, only for a second. 

After another ten minutes, I heard sirens. A mixture of paramedics and police ran in. The paramedics shoved me out of the way and tended to Izzy. The police pinned Chris against the wall and handcuffed him. To his credit, he took it all without complaint. But, my attention didn't linger on him for long. It slid back to Izzy as quickly as it had shifted away from her. She didn't look any better, if anything she looked worse. An oxygen mask had been put on her and a paramedic was currently checking her pulse. He looked up then and saw me.

"You riding with her?" he asked as the other paramedic slid her into the ambulance. I didn't answer, just walked over to the ambulance and got in. 

The ride went by quickly. It consisted mostly of me holding Izzy's hand and murmuring incoherent things to her. When we got to the hospital she was whisked away and, because I wasn't family, I was left in the waiting room.

I spent two hours in that room, driving myself slowly insane. The walls were closing in on me, blank and white. The obscene orange chairs made my eyes water. And all the time my mind was on Izzy. Hoping, praying, she'd be okay. That she'd be able to come back to me. 

After a long time and after Izzy's whole family, Sam and Hayley had joined me, a doctor came towards us. I couldn't read his expression which was incredibly frustrating.

"She was very lucky, the knife missed her spinal cord and she hasn't lost a I

Terrible amount of blood but, she will need to take it easy for a while. His face broke into a smile and he led us towards Izzy's room. 

She looked better. Her skin was its normal peach-white rather than deathly white. Her eyes were open and blue as ever. I knew right then, that I loved her. The sort of love that you know is forever.

Izzy's POV 

Everyone came rushing into my room and my mother threw herself at me. I winced in pain.

"Isobel! Oh, Izzy! I can't believe this! Stabbed? Izzy what would we have done? Don't ever scare us like that again!" She was crying now and I hugged her tightly, ignoring the twinge in my lower back. 

The next few minutes were spent, hugging and with sighs of relief. Finally my father got up and put his arm around my mother's shoulder.

"Shall we leave Isobel alone with her friends for a little while Georgina?" My Dad said smiling at my mum, who looked horrified at the very thought. Eventually though she agreed. 

"Oh my God Izzy! I'm so sorry! We should never have left you!" exploded Sam, throwing her hands in the air.

"What do you mean? It's not your fault! It's fucking Izzy's! How stupid are you? Why? Why, did you go with him? You idiot!" Hayley was shouting by the end. Hayley never has, and never will do sad. 

"It's okay Iz. I saw a tear in her eye before." Whispered Sam. Hayley shot her a death glare but, said nothing.

"Guys? I love you and all but, could you give me a minute with Tom?" They both nodded and walked out of the room. 

"Tom?" I asked.

"Yeah?" he replied 

"It wasn't me." I protested feebly, the sleeping drugs were starting to kick in, finally.

"Huh?" He said, his eyebrows furrowed. 

"I didn't write that letter, it was Chris, I wouldn't, ever, write that. Why would you believe it?" I said

"I don't know. I suppose, when someone tells you they care about you, it's hard to accept because, if you're let down, it breaks your heart. But, it's easier to believe someone when they say they don't love you." He finished and looked at me. 

"That's a good answer but, I do love you, I promise."

"I love you too." 

"I feel sleepy..........." I mumbled and Tom lay next to me and held me. For the first time in days I felt, completely, safe.

It's short, I know. I don't give a shit to be honest. I'm nearly done now just, one more chapter and the epilogue. So yeah, nearly done. THANK GOD!!!

Izzy's POV

My eyes, I knew, were filled with tears. I looked a Chris beseechingly, hoping he would do the right thing, now, before it was too late. He looked at me, a long blank look. Then picked up the veil that a nearby assistant was holding and placed it carefully, tenderly, on my head. He looked at me again, this time I saw a flicker of something, something I often saw in my own eyes when I looked at Tom and at that moment, I wanted more than anything to love Chris, but I couldn't. I just couldn't. Though, I really, really wanted to. My head, and my heart, just weren't co-operating.

We were lead into the small, dirty room where we were to be joined in holy matrimony. I shivered at the very thought. I wasn't ready for this, I'm sixteen and even if it was Tom standing next to me right now, I'd still be terrified. I'm just not ready. I started to shake and my breathing got uneven and shallow. Chris put his arm around me, in what probably looked to everyone else like a comforting and loving gesture, but really it was so he could keep his knife pressed against me. We were in now, waiting for the wedding march to start.

Tom's POV

I knew she was in there, now I just needed to get in.   There was a queue forming by the door as it was now night time. How could I get in? I scanned the room desperately, hoping to God something would pop up and save the day.

Right by the door, I assumed led to the room where it all happened, there was the receptionist. I wondered if, perhaps, I could flirt my way in. It was worth a shot. She was quite young, around nineteen. It's a good job I look old for my age.

I ruffled my hair up into what I hoped was a passably attractive mess and sauntered over to the receptionists desk. I tried to imagine that she was Izzy but, I couldn't do it. This girl was just not her. She was blonde with blue eyes which would make you think she was gorgeous. Wrong. Her hair was obviously died blonde as, it was only one colour and it was practically yellow. She also seemed to think a whole tube of foundation was a good luck. I tried my best though; hopefully she was the sort of girl that would fall for this bullshit.

"Hey," I husked and glanced at the girls name tag "Shauna? What a hot name." she blushed ever so lightly and batted her eyelashes at me in a very unattractive way.

"Thanks." She simpered back "What's your name?"

"Tom." I answered "Listen, could you just let me in the ceremony room? It's my friends wedding and I'm the witness. I just went out to get some air and they'd already gone in." I looked at her from under my lashes in what I hoped was an alluring look. I seemed to work, as she stood up and beckoned me to follow her with her finger.

She led me through a series of hallways then, into another, much smaller, waiting room which contained only one couple, they looked excited and very drunk but, weren't Izzy and Chris.

"They must already be in there." I muttered mostly to myself but, Shauna heard me and motioned me through a door at the end of the hall. I followed, hoping........what? That she'd suddenly realise her love for me, just because I came to tell her that very thing that she'd specifically said wouldn't make her change her mind?

I couldn't do it, she'd never take me back or suddenly realise her love for me. Or whatever the fuck I was hoping would happen. I couldn't do it, no I couldn't. I was just about to tap Shauna on the shoulder and tell her it didn't matter. But, she'd already opened the door and announced my presence.

"Here's your witness!" she exclaimed with a flourish of her hand. I smiled weakly at a very shocked Izzy and an infuriated Chris. I strode to the front of the room and sat down. I tried to speak but, the vicar was adamant.

"Wait until the time I ask if anyone has any objections." He hissed menacingly, he scary as anything for a freaking priest. I sat fidgeting nervously until finally.

"Speak now or forever hold your peace." I jumped up then.

"Me! I have an objection! Izzy, listen. I know you wrote that letter and-"

"What? Tom I-"Izzy started but, I cut her off with a wave of my hand

"No, let me finish. I know you said you love Chris and the logical thing to do would be to get on with my life. But, I can't. I can't Isobel I love you, always will. But, I want you to be happy, if you love Chris then, I'll leave you alone but. If there is a small chance that you love me too then, just do it, take a chance Izzy." I finished and looked at Izzy pleadingly. She looked at me; her eyes filled with tears, and cried out in pain. "Izzy?" I asked and when she fell to the floor, panic flooded my body "IZZY!" I roared I glanced at Chris, he was holding a blood soaked knife in his hand a look of horror on his face. "Fucking go." I whispered "Go and fucking call the police and the paramedics and turn yourself the fuck in. now."

He rushed from the room, while the minister looked on in shocked horror. I cradled Izzy in my arms as blood seeped through her top onto my hands. Her face was losing colour and I couldn't stand it. She couldn't leave me. Could she?

So, I got my results today.......................

I passed everythijng!!!!!!! :D:D

I got five B's, four C's and two A's!!!!!!!!

So, I did freakin' well!!!!!!!!

:D

Oh, and Happy Birthday James!!!! <3

So, i've nearly finished Not A Minute Spent. Got around three chapters left. Then there's You Took The World With You dunno who's reading that but, meh. I will continue that. Promise.

I've got an idea for a new fic but, it's complicated and i dunno if anyone's done it before that may be out in like late september.

That brings me to my other point, I should be sarting collegein about two weeks which will equal less postage as, i won't be home till five and i'm gettig a job. So, yeah i'll be worse than i am now. Sorry.

Then, my last point which is pure blogging but, i'm just so freaking nervous! Tomorrow i'm getting my GCSE results. And if i don't get the right grades i can't go to college and then i can't do what i want when i'm older so......wish me luck. God, i'm nervous........

Iz <3

Izzy's POV

The seat was hard and itchy underneath my half bare legs, every time I moved I felt that faint feeling of irritation which, only seemed to increase my anxiety. My feet were tapping out a nervous beat on the old cracked tiles that paved the path to my impending future. Just the room itself intimidated me; it didn't look like a place where happiness was sealed with some words and a slip of paoer. The room was dim and grey, as if all colours had been washed away. Even the receptionist behind her desk looked like all colour had been washed away from her. She sat unsmiling, unmoving behind her desk, as though there was no point in it. Lastly, I let my eyes dart towards the figure hunched next to me and felt slightly calmer, why? I have no idea but, it helped. I think it was because he was the only thing there that felt real.

In my head it felt like there was a million people were crammed inside a tiny space and they were all screaming advice. The problem was there was so many I couldn't make out what any of them were saying. It felt like I was going insane. I pulled my knees under my chin and continued to look at Chris; hopefully, he would keep me sane even though he brought all this upon me.

Tom's POV

My heart was aching and my mind was racing or maybe the other way round, or both. I don't know, I don't really care either. All I want is to know I've tried, tried to get Izzy back, even if she doesn't want me. I shook my head slightly trying to arrange my thoughts and failed. I gave in and let them take over.

Does she want me there.........?

What will she do when I find her?

What will he do?

Where is she?

Will it have happened yet?

What will I do when I get there?

These same questions circulated in my head yet, I had no answers. The only thing I could do to get me closer to the answers was to exceed the speed limit more than I already had.

After what seemed like an eternity I was on the strip. It occurred to me that I'd have to check numerous chapels before I found her. I took a dep breath and ran at a sprint towards the closest chapel and burst through the door.

Izzy's POV

I feel sick, insane and confused. We were waiting in a long line of people, there were six couples in front of us, and I could see Chris getting irritated with every minute that went by. I wanted to comfort him, to tell him it would be okay. To tell him to do the right thing. But, words failed me, I just hoped he'd see sense himself, there was nothing I could do to change his mind.

I wondered idly when Tom would figure out what had happened to me, it would seem as though I'd just disappeared off the face of the earth. But, Hayley and Sam knew that Chris had asked to meet me so, they'd figure it out eventually. Then though, it would be too late. I sighed in despair and put my head in my hands.

Tom's POV

I was out of breath, heart pounding, head sweating and on my fifteenth chapel. I still hadn't found Izzy, or Chris. This was turning into a nightmare that I would surely never wake up from. The grimy street looked overpopulated and threatening, as if any one of them could be holding Izzy away from me. Each step I took felt more and more useless, like I'd never find her, maybe I never would.

Izzy's POV

"Four couples to go, every minute ticking by was making me more and more anxious. Chris was still sitting in that same position as he'd been in two hours previously. Yet, deep down, I still knew he'd do the right thing. The question is, when he would.

Tom's POV

Seventeenth time lucky, I hope. I looked at the dilapidated building and hoped that this was the right chapel. I opened the doors and scanned the room. It was shabby and gray, the opiate of any wedding chapel I'd seen previously.

There were three couples in there but, one stood out to me. They were sat on a small leather couch in the corner; one figure was hunched over, his face to the floor. His hair masked his face but, there was an unmistakable green streak in it. I gritted my teeth in anger then, let my gaze slide to the figure next to him. She looked tiny, her knees hunched to her chest, eyes wide and unblinking. I felt such a surge of emotion just seeing her knowing she was safe, that I nearly ran over and kissed her right then, right there. But, then I remembered the letter. I needed to think about what I was going to say, neither of them had seen me yet so, I slipped quietly out of the door and sat on a nearby bench.

Izzy's POV

I felt ready to vomit as the couple before us ran out of the main part of the chapel grinning like idiots, we were beckoned forwards and I swallowed convulsively. Chris produced his knife from his pocket and looked at me, just looked at me. Then, he smiled.

"After you." He murmured pressing the blade into the small of my back.

Tom's POV

It was sorted out in my head, I was ready. It had taken more then an hour but, I was ready. I took in a few gulps of air to steady myself then, marched purposefully into the chapel. I looked at the seat. Empty.

I looked around the whole room wildly, no sigh of them. My breath was coming short, she must be in there, and I had to do the cliché of all cliché's. Luckily, Izzy was worth, I just hope, she thinks I'm worth it too.

Yeah, not much left now! Comment and shizz =]

I freaking hate buzznet sometimes, like, the actual website and the way it works not well, everything else.

The reason? Is stupid but, still.

Me and Laura.Sam whatever (lol) wanna post some pictures, ll a lot, on here but, it's NOT working! They are very amusing too but, yeah no pics for you so, Izzy is not happy.

Title: You Took The World With You

Pairing: Alex Gaskarth/Izzy Miller

Rating: PG 13

Summary: Same as last time.

Authors Note: They won't all be this long. Sorry

Alex's POV 

I walked into school for the millionth time, yet nothing was the same ever since.......what happened. Everywhere I looked people looked at me with sympathy, even though the incident only partly affected me. The main person it affected however was far from realising the extent of what was wrong with her life.

Everywhere I looked people looked at me as if I was some sort of animal in a zoo. It was annoying to say the least. But, it was something I was beginning to get accustomed to as it had been a month since it had happened. 

For the millionth time I went over what happened that day and wished yet again, that it had happened differently.

The party was in full swing, the whole house stank of alcohol and cigarette smoke. Every surface was littered with cups, plates and people. People talking, people asleep or passed out and people getting so intimate it was making me a little uncomfortable. 

Sitting beside me, was my girlfriend of three years, Izzy Miller. I smiled as she talked to her best friend Hayley. I loved just watching her be. The way he small, slightly pink lips curved into small smiles when she argued with Hayley which, was often. Considering, they argued about just about anything and everything. Also the way she automatically sweeps her hair out of her hair every few minutes. It was just so cute. But, I kept getting distracted by my pounding headache which, wasn't being helped by the blaring sound of Papa Roach coming from the numerous speakers placed around the house.

Finally, it all got too much for me to handle, considering a group of people in the kitchen had started a screaming match. I groaned massaging my temples and turned to Izzy.  

"Iz, I'm going to head home. My head is killing me. You coming?" I asked

"Nah, I think I'll stay here a little longer. I'll get a ride home with Hayley and Phoebe. You feel better okay?" she said and kissed me on the forehead like a little kid. I groaned in protest. 

"What am I? Five?" I complained

"Oh sorry, I thought you were too ill for a proper kiss." She told me, smirking. 

"I'm never too ill for that." I purred. She rolled her eyes but, was smiling. She leant forwards and kissed me, I smiled against her lips. "That's better." I muttered "Now, have a good time and I'll see you later, bye." I walked away then and got in my car, still feeling ill but, feeling a little better now I was further away from the noise.

The ride home was uneventful and soon I was back in my flat. I went into my bedroom which was messy as usual but, I liked it more that way, and pulled the first-aid box from under the bed. After a lot of rummaging and a lot more very colourful outbursts, I found the pain-killer and took them gladly.  

Just as I was thinking about getting ready for bed, my phone began to ring shrilly, blasting out What It Is to Burn by Finch. I hummed along for a moment, and then picked up my phone to see it was Hayley calling me.

"What do you want?" I asked irritably  

"Oh my god, oh my god! You've got to come now, please! She's hurt, she,-she-we've had a car accident and she flew right through the windscreen. Get here-please......I.......we......she.....pleases....." she was sobbing uncontrollably now, hardly able to speak.

"Where are you?" I asked urgently, pulling on my shoes as I spoke. A feeling a dread was seeping through me like poison. She flew through the windscreen....she went through the windscreen. I shook my head, to try and block out the horrible thoughts that were clouding my head and focused on Hayley. 

"We're, we're at the t-top of P-penny lane." She told me

"Are you and Sam okay?" I asked running to the front door. 

"Sam's unconscious b-but, I think she ok-kay And I'm f-fine." She sobbed

"I'll be there in five minutes." I told her and shut the phone. That car-ride was possibly the worst minutes of my life. The whole time, I was struggling to concentrate on the road, and only the road. I couldn't keep the thoughts at bay though. "What if she was brain-damaged?" "What if she was dead?" I cringed away from that though, the instant I thought it. No, that couldn't happen, she would be fine, she would live. I chanted this in my head the whole way there; hoping if I believed it enough, it would be true. 

I skidded the car to stop, without bothering to park it and tumbled out of the car. I sprinted towards Izzy and kneeled by her side. When I looked at her, bile rose in my throat. Her beautiful face was covered in blood. Oozing out from various deep cuts all over her face. What little of her wasn't covered in blood was purple already. Her arm stuck out at an odd angle and I knew it was broken. Her eyes were closed and she was breathing, she was still alive but, her breath was ragged and coming in short quick gasps. I knew something was very wrong.

"Did you call an ambulance?" I asked Hayley urgently who was kneeling on the other side of Izzy. She looked terrible. There were an infinite amount of tiny cuts all over her face, she was ghostly pale and her red hair was sticking out at odd angles. 

"Yeah, b-before I c-called you." She replied. I looked over her shoulder and saw Sam lying unconscious a few feet away but, otherwise she looked unscathed. I sighed in relief at that, then, glanced at the car. The winder scream was completely shattered but, the front was otherwise undamaged. The back of the car was squashed and dented, and skid marks were noticeable a good ten feet away from where the car now stood.

"She wasn't wearing her seatbelt was she?" I asked 

"No, you know what she's like." Cried Hayley she took hold of Izzy's hand and clutched it tightly. Then, in the distance I heard sirens. In a few minutes which seemed like a millennium they were there. They prised me away from Izzy and put her on a stretcher along with Sam. Hayley followed along escorted by a paramedic. I climbed into the ambulance as well. I didn't care if I wasn't allowed. I was going to stay with Izzy.

As soon as we got to the hospital, Izzy was rushed off into a special care ward. I was left standing in the busy parking lot. I stood there for a moment in shock then, I snapped out of it. I rushed into the hospital and looked around wildly. All hospitals were the same, I was sure. I could smell that faint smell of rubber and anaesthetic that lingered everywhere in hospitals, the walls had the same bland white colour that gave you nothing to think of except your pain. And of course, there were those same chairs in various garish colours depending on the hospital. I sank down in one, my head in my hands, knowing I would not be allowed to see her as I wasn't family. I sat there and waited, hoping that everything would be okay. 

Without even thinking about it, I had arrived at my locker. I shuddered just thinking about it but forced myself to remember it all.

After around three days both Phoebe and Hayley were out of the hospital and they were both fine. But, they were at the hospital just as much as they were before, de to Izzy's condition. 

It had been three weeks and nothing had changed. Izzy was in a coma, and the doctors weren't sure why, or when she'd come out of it. Every day I woke up at 7am to find a fresh wave of hope washing through me. I would get dressed quickly and drive haphazardly to the hospital, along the way I'd pick up flowers for her and walk the familiar path to her hospital room. Once I got there though, I would loose every shred of that hope when I saw that she was still deep in a coma.

One morning however, a month after the accident I came into Izzy's room and my hope blossomed into full on ecstasy. Izzy was sitting up in bed and blinking furiously. She still looked pale and unwell but, she had a faint flush around her cheekbones and her eyes were glittering with innocence and intelligence. I knew everything was going to be fine. 

"Izzy!" I cried and ran towards her, I put my arms around her but, she flinched away. I frowned.

"Izzy?" I asked. She continued to stare at me her brow furrowed. 

"How do you know my name?" she asked quietly

"What?" I repeated startled. 

"How do you know my name?" she repeated. I stood frozen for a moment and decided to humour her.

"I'm Alex, your boyfriend of three years." I informed her. She looked bewildered now.  

"I'm your girlfriend? Yeah, right." She replied sarcastically, laughing a little. I rolled my eyes and turned to the doctor who had just stridden in.

"What's wrong with her?" I asked urgently 

"She has what seems to be a mild case of Dissociative Fugue?." He told me heavily

"What's that?" I asked 

"Amnesia. She remembers who she is but, nothing else it seems. But, we are fairly certain she will recover most, if not all, of her memories." He smiled as he said this and my heart lifted. She would be okay; it would just be a little longer. I would wait. I turned away from the doctor and proceeded to tell Izzy everything about our relationship.

It had been around six months since that day and Izzy had remembered everything. Except me. No matter how much everyone tried to persuade her, she was convinced that I being her boyfriend was all a joke. Was I that unimportant to her? That irrelevant? It depressed me to even think such things but, what other explanation was there? 

All I know is, I have to make her remember. Somehow, some way I would make sure she remembers me.

Okay, so this is a mini-fic I've been writing. I like it quite a lot and it will only be around seven chapters. So yeah have fun reading.

Title: You Took The World With You

Pairing: Isobel Miller/Alex Gaskarth

Rating: Erm....PG-13 I think due to violence.

Summary: Alex was completely happy untill one night when it was all ruined

Every day passed by in a blur, it was wonderful. I was so happy that I walked around with a constant stupid smile on my face. She lay in my arms, facing away from me, completely content, as was I.

The whole garden was filled with dazzling sunlight, making everything seem brighter and happier. It was the end of spring so; all the plants were in full bloom, making the garden look beautiful. But, it came second in comparison with her. It was a perfect moment among many that I knew I had already would and would experience, as long as I was with her. 

She turned towards me and smiled sleepily with her eyes half closed, to block the blinding sun from them. She nuzzled her face into my neck and kissing it softly while I stroked her hair.

"I love you." She murmured against my now warm neck. 

"I love you too." I replied and kissed the top of her head lightly. She sighed and unwound my arms from her and stood up. She stretched, her hands curled into fists and her mouth a perfect o shape. I smiled at her and stood up as well taking her hand as I did.

"Come on." She purred. I followed her slightly confused but, I was curious too. She led me through the dark and quiet rooms of her house, then up the stairs, until finally we were in her room. As always, it was neat but, messy. Books were piled haphazardly next to her beds and CDs were next to her CD player. Her room was covered in various band posters and pictures of friends and other such things. She sat down on her bed, biting her lip. I sat down next to her and looked into her face, trying to guess what she was nervous about. 

"Is something wrong?" I asked, when I couldn't guess from her expression. She was still biting her lip but, eventually she answered me.

"No, no, not at all. I'm just a little nervous." She stammered and blushed, looking down at the floor. She seemed to be thinking about something, very hard. Then she leaned over and kissed me, much deeper than she usually did. Her hands crept forwards to my t-shirt and pulled it off. I suddenly realised why she was nervous. I was too, but we both wanted this. We wanted each other, we always would. 

But, that was what my life used to be. A happy, loved up blur, now all i had was sorrow and the determination to keep going with my life. It was a very small amount of determination but, it was there, how else was i living without her?

So, the most important first.................

HAPPY BIRTHDAY COBY!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU'RE GETTING OLD NOW BUT, WE STILL LOVE YOU, YOU RETARD!!!!!

Second and much less important thing, haha Rhii you wanna kill me right now....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RHII!!!!!!! YOU'RE 16, FUCKING LEGAL!!!!!

So, yeah that' all I wanted to say udes, buh bye!

 

So, here ya go! Sorry for typo's and shit but, i'm going out soon so, i had to type it up real quick. Hope you like!

Tom's POV

 

1 day previously 

The air was warm and light, there were streams of people heading into the mall as, and it was mid morning. I had been waiting now for an hour but, there was something missing, Izzy. It wasn't like her to be this late, she was always late but, usually only by around 15 minutes, I'd checked in the mall and I couldn't see her. I decided to text her.

 

Hey Iz, where are you? I'm waiting outside the mall, like we said. See you soon xx 

I put my phone back in my pocket and waited, after another 15 minutes, there was still no text. I decided to go to her house. Five minutes later I was there, she'd probably just lost her phone again.

 

I loved Izzy's house, it was so like her, small and sweet. It was quite small and white with a blue door. The windows always sparkled in the sun and there were flowers in the garden that made the air small like summer all year round. I opened the small wooden gate and walked to the blue door and knocked. Izzy's mum answered, smiling. It was weird she looked nothing like Izzy. She was dark blonde with a long face and blue eyes. She was also quite tall, whereas Izzy is tiny. She was still just as pretty as her daughter though. 

"Hello Mrs Miller, is Izzy here?" I asked politely

 

"No Tom, she's not actually but, this was left for you, I'm guessing it's from Izzy." She told me giving me a small white envelope. The name on the front was typed so, I couldn't tell who had written it. 

"Okay, thanks Mrs Miller." I said and turned away from the door. I walked towards the nearby kids' playground, found a bench and sat down. I opened the letter and began to read.

 

Dear Tom, 

I cannot keep up this charade that I have been living for the past few weeks; I have been living a lie. I do not love you, it was all a lie. I did so I wouldn't hurt your feeling, you were new and I wanted to help you fit in. But, now I cannot hide my true feelings.

These true feelings are that I love Chris. I have been in love with him for years but, did not know he returned my feelings until very recently. 

This is why I am going to Vegas with Chris to get married. We are in love Tom, please don't come after me, I won't change my mind. If you love me, you'll want me to be happy. Please let me be happy with Chris and don't tell anyone else of our plans.

Isobel 

When I finished reading, I couldn't think all I could hear was phrases from that letter as though Izzy had spoken them herself. I do not love you...... I love Chris........ I am going to Vegas with Chris to get married.......... Please let me be happy with Chris........It was too much. I couldn't believe it. I love Izzy with all my heart, with all my being, and she tells me she doesn't love me. There was something seriously wrong with this letter.

 

I looked at it again and again, until I practically had it memorised. Parts of this letter didn't sound like Izzy like she would never use the word charade and she's not often that bothered about hurting people's feelings. But, she must have written it, she doesn't love me and never will. 

But, I've got to try, I love her. Maybe if she sees how much, she'll.......I don't know but, if I don't try I'll never forgive myself, ever. I've got to go to Vegas. Now, before I was too late.

 

I ran all the way home, bumping into numerous people and objects on the way. I got to my car and was tired, confused and angry, angry at Izzy for leaving me like this. It's a good job I love her so dam much. 

I jumped into my beloved car, I am such a guy when I comes to cars, started the engine, turned of the CD. Player, which had started to blare finch and started the long and tiring road to get Izzy back. I was angry, tired and angry, at Chris for taking away Izzy and Izzy for leaving me like this, it's a good job I love her son dam much.

Okay so, i've posted. It's not too good but, it's passible.

 

It felt like this car, this cramped, smelly, broken down and dishevelled car was now the place in which I would remain forever. We had been driving for hours, through the same boring countryside; it seemed to be imprinted in my mind. It looked gray, dull and boring, I was so sick of it that I slept mostly. Chris did not speak to me and I returned the favour, only because I could not think of anything to say to him. I'd screamed at him, pleaded with him and reasoned with him. Nothing worked, so I gave up. The only thing that marked the time for me was the sky, every hour it would get darker and now, after hours, it was starting to get lighter. I was just hoping we were nearly there; I was hungry, thirsty and scared, in that order.

 

Finally, what seemed like days later, even though it could only have been a few hours, we drove into the city. There were glittering signs everywhere; but there were hardly any people about considering it was mid-morning. The sidewalks were cracked and grimy as, everything else around us was. I instantly knew where we were and I did not like it, at all. 

"Are you fucking with kidding me?" I screamed "Are you fucking kidding with me?"

 

"What?" asked Chris wearily. 

"Vegas Chris? Fucking Vegas? What the fuck? Why would you bring me here? Why the fuck would you bring me here of all places? What the fuck?" I screamed, when I finished, my throat felt raw like I'd ripped it, I screamed that loud. The whole time I ranted, Chris just looked at me, through the mirror, and looked tired; it made me feel sorry for him, even though I was the one there against my will.

 

We finally stopped and I reached for the door instantly, hoping to escape. Chris was my best friend but, he was scaring me. Before I had a chance though, Chris was opening my door for me, he seized my by the wrist and pulled me roughly from the car. I winced and considered screaming but, I didn't want to get Chris in trouble. 

We walked down the grimy and slightly dilapidated street, it was depressing to even look at, let alone live in. Chris was now clutching my hand tightly and it hurt but, I couldn't get my hand out of his grip. To a passer by we probably just looked like any normal couple that they saw constantly around Vegas. I sighed, trying to escape would be stupid, Chris was faster than me and stronger, and maybe just going along with what he wanted would be easier for everyone, even me.

 

After a few more minutes of walking in silence, we stopped in front of a small building and I gasped. We were in front of a small, red brick building, with dirty windows and a small faded white door. It was small and deserted but, the thing that caused me to gasp was the sign. It covered most of the small building's upper half, it would light up at night but, as it was daytime was unlit and dull. It read "Al's Wedding Chapel." I gulped and turned to Chris, dreading the worst. 

"Why are we here Chris?" I asked quietly, trying to control my shaking voice.

 

"Izzy, as I told you before, I am in love with you and as you refused to spend the rest of your life with me. I'm going to make you." He told me a steely glint in his eye. 

"Chris, if you love me though, you'd want me to be happy, wouldn't you?" I asked nervously.

 

"But, what about me? I can never be happy without you." He exclaimed, moving closer to me and bending his head. I turned my head away. "You have no choice." He whispered in my ear, making me shiver and turn away from him. 

"Why?" I was stupid enough to ask. Chris produced a small silver knife from his pocket and pressed it very lightly against my throat making me cringe. "Here comes the bride....." whispered Chris as he led the way into

Well, this is for the awseome new group called Write This Line, it's the prompt of the week one-shot for the prom theme. Enjoy people.

Title: Every Thorn Has A Rose

Pairings: Alex Gaskarth/Isobel Miller, Ian Watkins/Isobel Miller, Sam/Jacoby.

Rating: PG

Summary: Alex is in love with a girl, whio doesn't know he exists. But, he has a plan......

Alex POV

I sat in the back row assembly with one of my iPod headphones barely listening to the monotonous tedium of whatever the head master was droning on about. Then, I heard a word, which triggered off an opportunity, good or bad I wasn't sure yet, it was, of course, prom. 

"....it will be held in the blue shore hotel on the 14^th of June. At 7 o'clock." Fear shot through me that was only a month away. I'd have to ask her soon. The rest of the assembly was over-ridden with thoughts on how on earth; I was going to get her to go to prom with me, me, Alex Gasarth, biggest music freak in the school.

The bell rang shrilly, signalling that it was time to go, making me jump about a foot in the air. After recovering from my scare, I got up, still thinking about the coming problem, and wandered out of the hall. Only to collide with the very person I was thinking about. I stared down at her and she made me want to hold her and never let go, no matter how pissed she looked at that present moment. It probably didn't bother me as; she always looked like that, at the moment anyway. 

She was beautiful. Her brown black hair was cut into a sharp pixie cut, that made her face look all cheekbones and lips. Her lips were small, plump and pink, I really, really, wanted to catch her bottom lip between my teeth and bite it. Her eyes were sparkling blue. They conveyed to me what most people could not see, that underneath her bad girl, couldn't care-less attitude; there was a girl who was vulnerable and just wanted to fit in.

As I came out of my daze she walked away from me, without so much as a "hey", and that pissed off look was still plastered on her face. She sauntered over to her little group of friends, including her boyfriend Ian, when I saw that I wilted inside. What I wanted seemed impossible. How could I get a girl who had a boyfriend, and seemed to hate me, to go to prom with me? I sighed and walked to my first class, hoping an idea would come to me. 

Minutes later, I flopped down into my seat next to Coby and by the manic grin on the face, I knew he had succeeded. Already. What an asshole.

"Dude, I did it! I did it! I got Sam to go out with me! To the prom!" he practically squealed, bouncing up and down in his chair. He is such a girl. Then he actually looked at me and his face fell. "Dude, what's wrong?" 

"I'm never going to get Izzy to go to prom with me." I groaned and put my head in my hands.

"Have you even tried to ask her?" he asked 

"Well.....no."

"Well, try retard!" he exclaimed slapping me hard on the back. Before he could say anything else the teacher entered the room, yelling at us all to shut up, leaving me alone with my scrambled thoughts. 

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That night I lay in my bed, trying to think of a way to ask Izzy to prom that would make her forget Ian and realise that I existed. I needed to think. How could I show her how much I wanted her? Then, an idea hit me, it was so simple. It might not work, it could have the opposite effect to the one I wanted but, it could absolutely, completely perfect. 

I jumped up off my bed and started to gather what I needed, excited now, I actually had an idea. I had to do it now, before I chickened out, or before someone else asked her.

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The next day, I stood waiting by Izzy's locker, I was so nervous, I was shaking. I knew she'd be alone; she got the bus and was always at school abnormally early. I waited a few more minutes then, I saw her, every time I saw her she took me breath away, it was a little sickening how much I liked her, but I couldn't help it. When she got to her locker, she eyed me suspiciously until I spoke.

"Izzy, will you go to prom with me?" I asked her, she opened her mouth, to reject me, obviously. "Don't answer yet, just think about it." I smiled at her, and then walked away. I just hoped my plan worked. 

By second period, I knew it had some affect, hopefully a good one, because when I saw Izzy she couldn't stop staring at me, I smiled in elation but, decided to wait until lunch.

Izzy's POV 

I looked after Alex, amusement ad shock filling my mind, what was he thinking? I was obviously going to prom with Ian. Even though he.....hadn't asked me yet. I sighed and opened my locker. Then, gasped at what was falling out of it.

Countless roses were falling out of my locker, and I mean loads of roses. I bent to pick them up and saw that there was a piece of paper attached to each one. Curious, I tugged on the paper and unfolded it. 

Your eyes put even the brightest of sapphires to shame.

Alex

As I finished reading, a small smile spread across my face. I am such a sap for things like that. I wondered if things like this were attached to every one of these roses. I picked up the next one and began to read. 

Your laugh is better than any instrument I've ever heard.

Alex

I read through every single one of Alex's messages, my smile becoming more and more pronounced with each one. It was possibly the sweetest thing anyone had ever done and I knew I would find it very hard to decline Alex now. As I was gathering the roses up and putting them back in my locker, my best friend Hayley, appeared by my side. 

"Oh my God! Did Ian do that?" she asked excitedly.

"No, Alex did." I replied, frowning a little. Why didn't Ian think to do something like that? 

"Oh," she seemed to be lost in thought for a moment. "What are you going to do about it?" she asked.

"Well, I kind of want to say....yes." I admitted sheepishly. 

"Do it then." She responded instantly. I made a face at her bluntness but, continued to think about my options. I could say yes but, would that mean a break up between me and Ian. Better yet, did I really care if I broke up with Ian? I eventually came up with an answer which, unfortunately was no. Despite that slightly unwelcome realisation I was really happy, now I was just waiting for Alex to approach me again. He didn't disappoint me.

"So, have you thought about it?" Alex whispered in my ear, as I waited in the lunch queue. I didn't answer but, took his hand and pulled him towards a nearby corridor that luckily was vacant. 

"Yes." I whispered. Earlier that day, I had broken up with Ian, things weren't good between us anyway and Alex made me realise that. I slipped my arms around his neck and looked into his deep brown eyes for a moment, just because I could. I leaned in, so close but wasn't quite touching his lips; he groaned and closed the tiny space between our lips. He caught my bottom lip in between his teeth lightly before kissing me properly. His lips were so soft and plump, I couldn't get enough of them. I could kiss them forever.

Eventually, I decided I needed air, I broke away and Alex leaned his forehead against mine, a smile on his face. 

"So, that's a yes?" Alex whispered

"Yes, nobody ever made so much effort to make me feel special. I like it." I said smiling. He kissed me again softly, sweetly, as if I was something very fragile then, took my hand in his.

"Let's go then." He drawled and led me back towards the lunch room.

Who is the first person you would call if you needed help?
Rhii Laura or my mum

Who was the first person to break your heart?
Not happened yet.

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
Er yeah

What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
Oh, they've gone.............

Are there certain things that can't be joked about with you?
Yeah,

Are you keeping a secret right now?
yup

Do you wish someone would call you?

No i'm still sleepy

If you ended up in jail, who would be next to you?

Rhii

Who did you last go out to eat with?

Laura

What was the last thing you spent money on?
Erm...........Coke

When's the last time you fell asleep watching a movie?
Watching the first Harry Potter a few days ago. I was so tired.

What's on your mind?
That's for me to know and possibley Rhii. Stoopid shared brain cell!

Are you counting down for anything?
Not really no.

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
Depends what i'm having feelings about.

Last person you hugged?

Laura but, not Laura on here different Laura

What was the last thing you laughed out loud about?
Erm....something at starlight probably

Today, would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?
Back

How was this weekend? Why?
Meh, was a little boring.

Do you remember your dreams?
Yeah, some of them.

When's your birthday?
4th June. Memba that children =]

What do you want?
Loadsa stuff

Who was the last person you rode in the car with that was under 21?
Rhii

Do you live on your own?
Er no.

Regret doing anything in the past week?
Erm.........I don't think so.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
Erm......my sofa

Are any of your friends taller than you?
Like, all of them. Lol, i'm only 5.3

Have you ever wanted to be a school bus driver?
No, definately not.

What is the last song you listened to?
The one Rhys made us dance to in drama. Very repetive song that i don't know the name of it.

Have you ever snuck into anyone's house?

Nope

Have you ever been bitten by anyone?
Yup.

Have you ever played matchmaker with your friends?
Erm............noooooooooo

What is the last caffeinated beverage you drank?
Coke

Do you know anyone that works at a movie theater?
Nah

Has anyone ever accidentally bit your tongue when you were kissing them?
LOL. no

Whose bed besides your own were you in last?
My  sisters lol

What color underwear are you wearing?
White and pink

Has anyone ever asked what color your underwear is (besides on a survey) ?
Yarse

Has a stranger ever asked if they could take your picture?
Nah

What color shirt are you wearing?
Blue

Do you regret kissing anyone?
Yeah

Do you regret not kissing someone?
Not now no.

Have you ever cussed someone out in front of their parents?
Nope

Where is the person who has your heart at the moment?
No-one has it anymore.

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
My guess so.

Do you laugh a lot?
Yeah i do

Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
No, i had a headache.

Do you know your best friend's middle name?
Oui oui.

What are you thinking of doing right now?
Watching the GG episode i recorded

Who was the last person you talked to in person?
My Momma.

Is there anything that you are craving right now?
Food

Do you hate when people call you when you're sleeping?
yep

Who is the last person you sent a comment/message to?
Erm....Jomaris?

Do you have a tan?
No, i am unaturally pale.

Do you drink your soda from a straw? Meh

Do you have a dog?
Yeah, Leo. Love him!

Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
Meh

Are you married?
No.

Soda or milk?
Soda

Who was the last person's voice you heard?
Whathisnames from KOL.

Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?
Yeah, gotta arrange going out.

Are you someone who worries too much?
I worry over stupid things.

Do you think you'll have the same best friend a year from now?
I hope so

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
Daniel lol.

What does the last text in your inbox say?
Erm............."It's raining so bring a raincoat or you'll get wet. xo"